Verse 1
When I was young the alcohol was talking
You told me then to stop calling you Mommy
So I granted your wish and called you by your name
Just like everyone else I joined in the game
It didn't sit right it wasn't how I felt inside
A stubborn habit at nine that I held onto tight
Even when the forgiveness came and the spirits dried up
I spent the rest of my days saying your name
I kept that distance in a bitter cup
Yes I Kept that distance in a bitter cup
Verse 2
I kept myself busy those last few months when it was tough
Pretending what was in front of me wasn't really what’s up
When you said well howdy stranger it meant you wanted to spend some time with me
But I would just peek my head in ask if you ate, or if you needed anything.
Kept both feet out for a quick escape
Never imagining that day I opened your door
I would never hear your beautiful voice anymore
Chorus / Transition
And it is so hard to move on and I cannot forget
Things left unsaid drowning in a keg of regret
Up to that hard to get through day
When I heard you say it is Mom I’m ok.
Bridge / The Fade
It was so hard for you to find a breath
Every day lived was a day you cheated death
Watching your light fade was a slow kind of theft
You were never a burden I just could not face
Your light fading in that quiet space
I catch a drift of your Chanel Number Five
And I miss your everything
I close my eyes and you are smiling at me, just frozen in time
The place you will forever be locked in my mind
The Awakening
Maybe it's the grief or those words you once said
But you announced your presence which I never thought I’d hear again
It was the correct key for the right hole
It opened the door and it saved my soul
Knowing your peace was a beautiful gift
And I felt the heavy weight start to lift that day
I heard you say, it is mom, I'm ok
Outro - Resolution
Then a thought turned my world around
Maybe you just wanted me to stand on my own ground
To call you Mom because I was growing up
But I was so young and I took it wrong
Now I understand what you were trying to say
when I heard it is mom I'm ok
I think it's time to throw my bitterness away
I'm throwing that old cup away
Thank you Mom, i'm throwing this old cup away